Thursday, January 26, 2006 / Thursday, January 26, 2006
i was surprised the sight of her made all tt unhappiness swim away.unhappy thoughts could still be revolving ard in my mind bt tt effort of hers to cheer me up kicked em away.the sweet surprise was shockin yet so pleasant n sincere.i m glad things got back into place. =)
Tuesday, January 24, 2006 / Tuesday, January 24, 2006
every single line tt pops up behaved like a needle.
the anger she vented may appear to be her old usual doings.
n tt '
sorry' after the venting session is over.
but it left me in
pain.motionless.disappointed.
she juz couldnt wait fer me to finish my lines in the beginning of the conversation.
gd intentions were being overlooked.worst still. overturned.
i didnt know i acted like a
irresponsible, selfish person to her.
nv felt so terrible after such a long time.
the pain inflicted went deeper n deeper n deeper. as the lines pop out 1 by 1 continuously.
heartlessly.esp when she HAD to emphasize
'at least' and capitalize
'ATTEMPT' in 1 of the needles she poked into me.
a nice conversation i wanted to have was screwed up juz like tt. juz like tt. nt even giving me a chance to console her abt wrk n things like tt.
yes.it screwed up juz lidat.all i wanted to say is. my sis wana meet her tml. n i will be coming. followed by the thoughts tt i missed telling her the night b4
cuz i needed some time alone den.
i didnt noe wanting some time to calm thoughts dwn could be a crime.till juz.
but i guess nw. oni the msg tt 'my sis is gonna meet her tml' makes pt nw.
nw i wish some1 will stand in frt of me to kill me more den u do.
classes? early slp? at this rate i am feelin now? tell me wads tt man.
teach me to forget n forgive.if nt. i need peace.
Sunday, January 15, 2006 / Sunday, January 15, 2006
my nana gal was sick..wondered hw is she feeling nw..hope u r fine gal..i missed tt jumpy irritating u..and ya..of cuz ur retarded voice..haha..get well get well get well..! if nt i will play that 'look fer the words in tt wordy A4 paper' game again..haha..train ur eyesight gal......hehe..
was movie-ing with wa.xuan. and her yesterday. er..ya. tout i could intro her to wa too..haha..caught nania..hee...niceee show..guess its the oni chance i could get to see eileen..hurr..oops.xuan look cool with her new hairstyle..*thumbs up* n ya..still trying to get familarised with her new christian name tt hopped frm 'zenn' to 'rouge'. lets hope it stays tt way..if nt very tiring to adapt ah..nice feeling to see em again..though the chill out time is short..awaiting fer our next meetin le! and and and..i am so so so so excited and happy fer wa..hurr hurr hurrr...=) xuan felt the same way too! we wana hear more of it!pretty tired after the long night me her and my sis had..came back only 630am..went to find her at viva den to ktv..erm...gets freaky when she got along well with my sis...like huh..? nw she claims she bond us together cuz i hardly hardly goes out with my sis..ya..felt weird to be hanging out with her lately mannn.travelled all the way to sengkang..for some hair mangement thingy. wasnt a success. wahhhh. its like we gt back hme. bathe n came outta hse le..my dad was like starin at us and wondering wads the prob with us mann..but we didnt care much. -__-oh ya. back to the movie part. hmm..den shopped ard fer awhile b4 wa and her went fer work at ard 4..haiz..hw nicee if we could all chill out fer 1 whole day together..k..den after tt..went good wood park hotel..find cin and to acc xuan to collect her pay..i smuggled in with em and ate the canteen's fd..haha..gt a free dinner.xuan left fer her reunion dinner while me and cin cont shoppin at far east...lotz of nice shoes....we bought some stuff here and dere..den went to scotts fer dinner..after eating nie called..she was like 'studying..'? i tout dere was smt wrong wif my ear..haha...and yes..she and her GD news..arghh..aiyo as usual..
gave her a surprise! keke..wanted to shock her in a diff manner..but oh damn. she spotted me so fast..=p cin wanted to see her..so brought her to pontini...shun bian let her see hws my wrkplace like..nua-ed at the kitchen fer awhile while waiting fer her to knock off..gerard was wrkin too..n gt to know the gang was meeting fer supper. decided nt to join.. cin left even b4 she knocks off.. oh ya..haha..cin couldnt believe tt she sees her in him...erm...yea..i tout so too..by the time i gt back..she was done with her stuff le.. saw julie outside..chef's back frm italy! haha..long time no c. he's still the same to me anyway.. oh..den julie was thinkin of means and ways to get me into zouk..i m like...a nua-ing shit le..i didnt wana go tts the whole prob..but she hack care n was thinkin and thinkin..arghhh.. in the end nua-ed awhile at the bus stop with her..till we decided to head hme cuz i was tired..and ya..both of us acted like small air ghost cuz of a stupid comment tt i passed when a lady walked past..*i realli realli misheard maaaaaaa. =(
anyway i gt hme. laid flat on my bed while she went back to zouk to find em..lucky thing was the shots were almost finished by den..=) gd fer her. yea.
oh ya. somebody hada eat grass fer the wk..hahahahahaha. i am so evil..i likeeeee.
the smallest thing she does makes my day.surprises can be stunning yet so sweet.
like wad can i say..........
Wednesday, January 11, 2006 / Wednesday, January 11, 2006
yep.its 7am nw. didnt slpt a wink at all. juz finished poa tutorial oni...*finally*
was hme early fer the night..but after all the nua-ing..mum's nagging session..i could officially start my hw like after 3am? haiz.. wad a night..make no diff if i were out loh..
yea wad a PH. was supposedly not wrkin de..den last min notice again..argh..if nt it would be such a cool chill out day with xuanie..our shopping are yet to be done mann...=( and movie with wa..ok...when would tt day come. suddenly miss em so much..
determined nt to be late fer lecture latr..haha..so i decided to stay awake..cuz i noe i cant possibly be satisfied with 45 mins of slp. so yea..its wise to be blogging nw..at least it keeps me awake at the moment..
guess wad. she did it again. fer the 2nd time. slpt while on the phone with me. arghhh. shld hav expected it. eeeeew. a freaking 2nd time. HMPH.
ok...gona be a long day tml..haiz..wrk sch and everythin r making me go bonkers. shit it man.yes yes. and all the 'nt started' projects. erm. ok. seemed quite dead.i badly need the motivation to study again.
the results were such a disappointment.
needa wake up le.
Tuesday, January 03, 2006 / Tuesday, January 03, 2006
argh. no more chocos nxt few days le..
slpt on the table *again* last night while struggling with the revision of p.o.a test juz nw..woke up at 3pm..when the paper's at 4..i realli chiong-ed like mad... manage to be on time though...and the paper was kinda smooth which was a lucky thing to me since i didnt get to complete the revision..
yes. my voice was gone after the intense chocos eating sessions last few days...gaoren saw me after the paper and was like 'eh...u also ah...?' and he laughed and laughed. cuz he gt his cough frm overeatin of chocos too..erm. shit. i think of lollipops when i see him. hahaha..gona pester him when sch starts again...
was talking real softly till nana gt pretty irritated..hahaha...went fer our candlelight dinner..and exchanged our prezzie..hurr..the other 2 went off pretty early...hw sad.. and yes.. nice catching up with u gal! after a whole long 2 wks of separation...it feels great to buy food..pee..laugh...*nt fer chattin fer today* together again..ya..i love ur colourful prezzie..hee....=p im glad u like urs too...=) *huggies. muacks* i will make it to ya performance de wor...dun fall dwn k. lalalaa..
was happy fer leo. she cleared her uncertainty. and i told her tt he had a greater loss den her...realli hope tt helps a little in lightening her mood. but anyway...i felt gd fer her. =) *cheerz. gonaa dig some time out fer chillin again...
noeing i cant retaliate..i gt nags frm every1...suan-ing me abt overeating of chocos..i am like..oh damn..'say me till very shuang hor' wait till i recover...i will go back to tt loud me..and yes. i cant stand silence.
my sis's back frm thai! so sad...didnt even giv me a call..-__- hw kind..n she was out b4 i reached hme..saw the clothes and skirts she gt..*which i am more interested in larr...was wondering if those were fer me..but actualli wun make much of a diff la...=) i HOPE so. hee..ok..shes nt back yet..so my uncertainty's still floating ard. and i definately hope she wun laugh at my loss of voice latr.
yay. no sch fer nxt 2 days. *cheers.
Monday, January 02, 2006 / Monday, January 02, 2006
i so so so love this new yr.
happy and delighted with the sweet arrangement she made at raffles e plaza.
but not at the cost after i found out juz nw. which supposedly she told me is at 200+...den became 300+++ den............
freaking 400 bucks. eeew. somemore we nuaed till we cant make it fer breakfast. haha..i was nagging like hell at her fer wasting the money lidat...arghhhh.
but its ok..she voluntarily let me confiscate her atm card and i hada ban her frm chiong-ing/drinking/paying fer others fer the whole wk. yay. hurrr..i think tt can help her save 400..cuz tts wad she usually spend within a wk...arghh.
made her nua alone fer 6 hrs...met her at 8pm...though its suppse to b at 6...but work was freaking busy tt i cant leave till 730...hmm....bad start. cuz i stopped at raffles place. mistook it with raffles e plaza...hahaha...but nvm......1 stop away oni..so nt tt bad after all..hurr..the buffet was GOOD. esp the prawns. and choco fondue. hurrrrr. absolutely engrossed with em.. i had a free of charge prawn peeler! heee. stuffed her with food till she wana puke..haha..and we were the last to leave...can imagine wad all of the crew muz be thinkin den..haha...juz like the way we curse ppl when they still dun wana get out of the res.anyway. i am so so so satisfied with this new yr. couldnt expect fer anythin more le.
juz hopin everything stays tt way.
juz hoping.
Sunday, January 01, 2006 / Sunday, January 01, 2006
hurr...wrk ended freakingly late. den made pathetic leo wait fer me...=( and hada caused her to blend in with tt gate..cuz of her outfit..hahahaha...
had a chocolatey dinner at esplanade...soo nice! except fer the bad service lar...they kept serving the food but didnt bother to attend to the awaiting guests outside to be seated...eeew. but anyway..the food was satisfactory to me...all concentrated choco...wheee...and the choco muffin wads niceee...leo doesnt seemed to like her apple crumble tt looks like gummy lao puo bing...haha...but i managed to console her tt it is of lesser calories den mine...hurr..
ok..and we were rushing like hell...running across the road...to get the cab? haha...cuz its freakin 1145 den...and we were so so so afraid we couldnt make it to the countdown at the hotel.. actualli had the intention of meeting wa fer movie chillout or smt...but cancelled eventually...hmm..eileen gave me a call and it was so damn hilarious....'dear mdm. juz a gentle reminder to let u noe tt u do hav an appointment at pontini fer the countdown..at 12 am. pls pls make it here..not try..but its a must..if nt ur regular guest eileen will be very very upset.' i am like hurr? arghhhh...haha...but it realli gt me laughing all the way...
ok..in the end..we were in time! den recieved call frm eddie. and i was shocked tt they were there too... haha...then saw yc..zhen..gerard.shichang. tout they had other programmes. ok...12 am. champagne were popped everywhr. den poor leo kana real bad...her hair...(like juz bathed lidat) stockings....clothes... hurr..she was cursing like hell...1st time she's so fierce..but i couldnt help it...and was laughing like an insane mad person.
and yes. i am damn happy cuz of his apology and things lidat...though i dun realli take them to heart anymore...but still..it feels great to hear tt frm him....so i guess..i will still monkey ard at pontini in 2006! cheers to uncle bear....
sat dwn at bar there to chill..had a tok with yc..*eileen didnt noe tts my gd pal n classmate in sec sch.tout i juz gt to noe him and tout i was flirting with him?! i am like...'siao ah!' haha...and she looked realli guilty fer thinkin of me tt way...hahahaha... ok..the night didnt end tt well...she gt pretty drunk. leo was angry and pissed cuz she doesnt wana go back with their parents...
gt to noe she's very much stressed up at wrk. but wadever decision shes gonna make.. i will support that as long as tts wad she wans. ok...well..its understandable tt she lost control in drinkin tt night...but was pretty fed up cuz she insisted on going out to drink with fadz they all though she promised to hav her last beer. haiz...den she was freaking stubborn. pushed every1 includin me. doesnt wan to be sent hme...lalala...haiz.. like a big baby.. -___- but in the end..she gt hme safely after all...which is the relieving thing.
it was a gd new yr's eve.
lets hope we r freed frm troubles and everything.
